If Only....

someone else could really walk in my shoes. In life we meet people, we bond, we may literally wear the same shoe size, but we don't live the same lives. I vent here because I feel it's the only time I can really be me. I can cry as I type or smile from cheek to cheek when things are going right. Just lately my son has been more than a handful, and sometimes I just feel as though I am losing my mind and I think can someone else take my job for a day. Yes I knew being a mother to a child with special needs was going to be hard, we were going to go through struggles, I just thought that it would only be when he was a child not an adult. OMG can I say next week he will be 25 and it's getting harder who would have thought. I'm so over it, I just give up now when he starts with his attitudes. How many more tears do I have to shed, how many more times do plead or beg please behave. He leaves to camp on August 20th for 13 days and I am counting the days that for the first time he will be away from home for more than 2 days. I am a little worried that the camp will call me and say you need to pick him up then what? So please pray that things get better, because to be honest I am just tired, overwhelmed and really stressed out. If you have read thanks for letting me vent.