Friday, July 23, 2010

If Only....

someone else could really walk in my shoes. In life we meet people, we bond, we may literally wear the same shoe size, but we don't live the same lives. I vent here because I feel it's the only time I can really be me. I can cry as I type or smile from cheek to cheek when things are going right. Just lately my son has been more than a handful, and sometimes I just feel as though I am losing my mind and I think can someone else take my job for a day. Yes I knew being a mother to a child with special needs was going to be hard, we were going to go through struggles, I just thought that it would only be when he was a child not an adult. OMG can I say next week he will be 25 and it's getting harder who would have thought. I'm so over it, I just give up now when he starts with his attitudes. How many more tears do I have to shed, how many more times do plead or beg please behave. He leaves to camp on August 20th for 13 days and I am counting the days that for the first time he will be away from home for more than 2 days. I am a little worried that the camp will call me and say you need to pick him up then what? So please pray that things get better, because to be honest I am just tired, overwhelmed and really stressed out. If you have read thanks for letting me vent.

6 comments:

LynneForsythe said...

hugs hugs hugs to you my friend!!! I know there are no words I can say...but I will pray!!!

Jodi said...

sending lots of hugs and prayers your way (((hugs)))

Julie Tucker-Wolek said...

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhh you poor thing...i can't even relate...but i feel your pain...my son has severe ADHD (with compulsive outbursts)...and I know it doesn't compare...but there has been days that I wonder when is school or daycare gonna call me and say he has been kicked out YET again??? I will be praying for you girl...and I hope that everything goes well with his camp so that Mama can have a nice break!!! {{{hugs}}} :):):):):):):):):):):):):)

Pinky said...

It's so much and you have done/are doing so well, don't be to hard on yourself momma....YOU are amazing!

Rosann said...

i will definitely keep you in my prayers. they say God never gives us more than we can handle so right!? Hang in there.

Leah Crowe said...

You are one of the BEST mama's I know Dolores. Big hugs my friend, I keep C and your family in my prayers daily. Lotsa love headed your way mama.