2Jills blog challenge "Because of You"

I titled mine Because of You, but the challenge is really about Mother's Day, and becoming a mom for the first time.

At the age of 18 when most teenagers are worried about High School proms, graduation, and what they where the latest fashions, I was pregnant and just trying to make it to school and at least graduate. I couldn't worry about the prom, I mean really back then maternity fashions sucked and well it really wouldn't look right me going to the prom at 7 mos pregnant. I do have to say my teachers and classmates were very supportive and helped me reach my goal. I was able to graduate with my fellow classmates that June, and in July I had a 5pound 10 ounce baby boy.

What was the happiest day of my life also became the most confusing day. You see I had a child with a disability called Down's Syndrome. I had never heard of Down's Syndrome, I didn't know what to expect, but I knew that I loved you. I mean, really everytime you moved inside of me, or I felt a kick I loved you. From the moment I was aware of my pregnancy, you were loved. So the moment you were born and they put you on my chest you were loved, I never saw a disabiliy I only saw this beautiful baby boy that was a part of me.

My sons name is Carlos Christopher, but we all call him Chris. I just want you all to know that because of him I became a mother, or should I say a lioness who is constantly protecting her cub.

Because of you, I had to grow up immediately, I not only became a mother, but I became a mother with a child with special needs. Because of you, I learned to be a little more patient. Because of you, I learned to love a little more freely. Because of you, I looked at the world diffently. Because of you, I am more compassionate. Because of you, I was not afraid to have more children. Because of you, your sisters are compassionate towards others. Because of you, I am full of life. Because of you, I laugh loudly. Because of you, I am LOVED unconditionally. Because of you, I love you more than you'll ever know. All this I'm able to do because of you. I love you Chris, my first love, my son.