Tuesday, April 24, 2007

2Jills blog challenge "Because of You"


I titled mine Because of You, but the challenge is really about Mother's Day, and becoming a mom for the first time.

At the age of 18 when most teenagers are worried about High School proms, graduation, and what they where the latest fashions, I was pregnant and just trying to make it to school and at least graduate. I couldn't worry about the prom, I mean really back then maternity fashions sucked and well it really wouldn't look right me going to the prom at 7 mos pregnant. I do have to say my teachers and classmates were very supportive and helped me reach my goal. I was able to graduate with my fellow classmates that June, and in July I had a 5pound 10 ounce baby boy.

What was the happiest day of my life also became the most confusing day. You see I had a child with a disability called Down's Syndrome. I had never heard of Down's Syndrome, I didn't know what to expect, but I knew that I loved you. I mean, really everytime you moved inside of me, or I felt a kick I loved you. From the moment I was aware of my pregnancy, you were loved. So the moment you were born and they put you on my chest you were loved, I never saw a disabiliy I only saw this beautiful baby boy that was a part of me.

My sons name is Carlos Christopher, but we all call him Chris. I just want you all to know that because of him I became a mother, or should I say a lioness who is constantly protecting her cub.

Because of you, I had to grow up immediately, I not only became a mother, but I became a mother with a child with special needs. Because of you, I learned to be a little more patient. Because of you, I learned to love a little more freely. Because of you, I looked at the world diffently. Because of you, I am more compassionate. Because of you, I was not afraid to have more children. Because of you, your sisters are compassionate towards others. Because of you, I am full of life. Because of you, I laugh loudly. Because of you, I am LOVED unconditionally. Because of you, I love you more than you'll ever know. All this I'm able to do because of you. I love you Chris, my first love, my son.

8 comments:

Tam said...

Okay, that just gave me goose bumps! You have a very handsome guy! And what a wonderful treasure!

Scrapthatpaper said...

O gosh Im in tears.. this is such sweet sweet journaling.. He is such a wonderful gift from God knowing NOT only that he is your son, but all the wonderful things he has taught you through out the life you two have shared! Just to know there are many more days to come. Thanks for sharing with us!

Cheryl said...

Dolores, what a truly beautiful story - thanks for sharing it with us.

Angela said...

Thank you for sharing your story with us! What a blessing you've been to each other!

Jennie said...

You're so beautiful, Dolores. I'm so happy to know you :)

Mandy said...

Girl thank you for sharing your story! You are one awesome lady!So glad I am able to call you my friend!

Heather said...

Dolores, What you wrote was so beautiful. Your words touched my heart and made me cry.Chris is a beautiful gift from God and handsome to boot. Thank you for sharing your story.

Canadian Girl said...

That's beautiful! What a great letter to your son!!